This week I’m sharing a revised post from 2011….
As I said when I first began blogging, I am not an expert on obsessive-compulsive disorder. In fact, sometimes I feel the more I learn about the disorder, the more confused I become.
Latest case in point: Many people with OCD deal with compulsions that revolve around the need to arrange things in some type of orderly fashion. Maybe certain items need to be lined up or spaced an exact distance apart from each other. Or perhaps there can only be a set number of items visible (usually an even number). This type of OCD is often referred to as evening up OCD. (To prove how not an expert I am, when I first heard this term I thought it referred to OCD in the nighttime!). Evening up compulsions can also include mental compulsions such as counting, as well as other compulsions such as tapping or touching things a specific number of times. So I get it. Order, symmetry, evenness are important to many people with obsessive compulsive disorder.
Then why is disorganization so common in those with the disorder? One of the first things I said to my son Dan when he told me he had OCD was, “Why is your room so messy? Isn’t it supposed to be really neat?” My ignorance showing through again. Many people with OCD have unbelievably messy living areas. I’m not talking about hoarders. That’s a whole ‘nother blog. I’m talking about not being capable of keeping your space and belongings in any kind of order.
When Dan was suffering from severe OCD, I saw his dorm room, and that memory still haunts me. There were papers and artwork, sketchbooks, schoolwork, clothes, art supplies, paint, books, towels, food, and toiletries, all completely covering the floor. He said that once he lost control of the order, he just couldn’t get it back. Is it that his OCD took so much time and energy that there was nothing left for daily living tasks?
For others with OCD the need to do everything “perfectly” leads to procrastination in cleaning. They wait until they feel they have enough time, motivation, and focus to clean perfectly. Chances are that time never comes, and like Dan, the chaos builds.
Another explanation some people with OCD give for not being able to keep their living space neat and clean is the fear of germs. While it might seem counterintuitive (if they’re afraid of germs, you’d think they’d clean up), it makes sense in a convoluted way. Perhaps a piece of food was dropped on the floor while cooking. Now the person with OCD feels that food on the floor is seriously contaminated and won’t touch it, so there it stays on the floor. Before you know it there are “germs” everywhere, and nothing can be cleaned or put back in its proper place.
It’s not hard to see that giving in to OCD’s demands creates the world that those with the disorder are trying so desperately to avoid. They’re deathly afraid of germs, but are now surrounded by them. They crave order, yet are living in chaos. The list goes on.
Thankfully, nobody has to live this way if they are willing to get help. The vicious cycle of OCD can be beaten with exposure and response prevention (ERP) therapy, and the ability to keep a clean home will be just one of the many benefits of freedom from OCD.