I try to imagine what it must feel like, after being controlled by OCD for so long, to finally have your life back. Relief. Gratitude. Excitement!
Yes, but for many, also add trepidation and confusion, with a helping of uncertainty.
What do I do NOW?
For many people, living with a good-sized case of obsessive-compulsive disorder is a full- time job. Obsessions, compulsions, more compulsions, getting stuck, avoidance, more compulsions, planning your next move, more compulsions – it can literally take up all your time. When my son Dan’s OCD was severe, OCD is all he “did,” day in and day out. It truly steals your life.
So when you finally get your life back, it can be disorienting and scary. What do you do with all this free time that no longer belongs to OCD? How can you be sure to live that happy, productive life you’ve worked so hard to reclaim?
I have heard from quite a few people who have had this issue, and it’s not unusual for OCD to try to worm its way back into their lives at this time. All the uncertainty about what’s to come lends itself to a ripe breeding ground for OCD. In addition, the person with OCD might start to obsess about how he or she thinks she is supposed to feel, or maybe even wonder if they ever really had OCD to begin with?
Hopefully, those who have made it this far in their battle will recognize OCD if it rears its ugly head and see it for what it is – a big bully trying to regain control. Of course, the way to keep it at bay is by continuing to use exposure and response prevention (ERP) therapy.
Back to the question of “What do I do NOW?” the answer is clear. You live your life the way YOU want to, not the way OCD wants you to. You identify your goals and work toward them within the framework of your values. What do you want out of life? While to some people the answers are obvious, others might need some guidance to help figure out their path. A good therapist can be invaluable.
Let’s get back to those feelings of Relief. Gratitude. Excitement! Because for all those whose lives are now unencumbered by OCD, anything is possible. Your hopes and dreams really can come true!